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4.3.11

Mumra Playlist: Week Two. Your theme tune.

Its taken me almost a week to think of "my theme tune" for Mumra Playlist.
I ummed and ahhed at songs such as "Everything I do, I do it for you" blah blah blah

But I think I have finally settled on my song.
Its not lovely and the story behind it is a bit sucky really! But it basically sums up the relationship I've had with my dad for 10 years!
Until recently I tried so hard to keep our relationship together, as someone described it "its like you keep running back to an ex-boyfriend who doesn't want you"
Its not like my dad ever rejected me, he left US, yes he cheated on my mum but he left US [us being me, my mum and my  brother] 10 years ago and I suffered depression badly [which comes back every now and then], and have had trust issues ever since. He broke my heart. I also suffer from panic attacks and severe anxiety too....the anxiety did get worse after I gave birth to Charles in 2009 but its something I deal with.

The words in this song I also associate with my relationship with depression and anxiety. I WON'T be beaten!!

Although not all of the words obviously apply with my reason for choosing I have highlighted the ones which I think do.

Well you’re the real tough cookie with the long history
Of breaking little hearts, like the one in me
That’s o.k., lets see how you do it
Put up your dukes, lets get down to it!
Hit me with your best shot!
Why don’t you hit me with your best shot!
Hit me with your best shot!
Fire away!

You come on with a come on, you don’t fight fair
But that’s o.k., see if I care!
Knock me down, it’s all in vain
I’ll get right back on my feet again!

Hit me with your best shot!
Why don’t you hit me with your best shot!
Hit me with your best shot!
Fire away!

Well you’re the real tough cookie with the long history
Of breaking little hearts, like the one in me
Before I put another notch in my lipstick case
You better make sure you put me in my place

Hit me with your best shot!
Come on, hit me with your best shot!
Hit me with your best shot!
Fire away!

Hit me with your best shot!
Why don’t you hit me with your best shot!
Hit me with your best shot!
Fire away!