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24.10.11

Music Therapy

I was tagged me in a meme which originated over at MAD Blog Winner Mammywoo's blog.
Mammywoo explained how music played such a big part in her life. Have a read of what she had to say about it.
Our mission, if we choose to accept is:

If you would like to have a go, just pick;
3 beautiful songs.
3 different bands.
3 sets of lyrics that touch you in anyway you want to show.

Ok my first choice is sort of rebelling against the rules. Its not a beautiful song, the lyrics don't touch me but the song makes me feel happy.
We were introduced to it when we holidayed in Lanzarote in April this year. I was 27/28 weeks pregnant. It was a very last minute holiday [booked Tuesday, there on the Thursday] but it was the last chance we would spend quality time as a family of three before we became a family of four.
Every night, after dinner, we would attend the mini disco, giving Charles the chance to let loose and dance until he couldn't dance anymore.
There was the usual Superman, Hokey Kokey and so on....
Then there were the Spanish songs, we searched all of them when we got home but not knowing the song names and guessing the lyrics we struggled.
One in particular was a favourite of ours though and we were delighted when we found it.
As we played it Charles' eyes lit up, butterflies fluttered in my tummy and we all started moving.
I recorded the song on my phone and every now and then will play it to Charles, as well as watching the video on youtube and he runs around singing "Lanzarote again! Go to Lanzarote again! yaaaaay" as well as dancing. I'm not ashamed to admit that I now know all the dance moves and headed over to a translation site to see what the man is saying. Its not at all interesting, he's just telling us which moves to make.
Still to this day I get butterflies when I hear it. And it brings tears to my eyes.
It was when we got back from holiday that it hit me that I was having another baby and at the time, before, whilst on holiday and when we got back, I had feelings of guilt about being pregnant, about "ruining" life for Charles and this song took me away from those feelings.
I bring you.......Chu Chu Ua.

Second song is the classic that is, Bryan Adams: Everything I Do, I Do It For You.
This brings two memories for me. The most recent being my wedding reception. I had my first dance with my husband then second dance with my dad. I expected people to join in with the second dance but they didn't, they just stood and watched. It made it even more special actually. We danced to this song. I've had an odd relationship with my dad but at this moment I felt closer than ever.
My first memory of this song causes feeling on embarressment but also joy.
We had been to a birthday party at McDonalds. We got home and had an hour or so until we had to go to bed so we put my Bryan Adams single on, I grabbed my dolls and teddies and lined them up on the sofa, my brother collected his tennis racket and handed me the handle from a skipping rope.
We were on stage.
We sang, mimed, played the guitar, danced and basically rocked out for around 30 minutes....unaware that my dad had set up the video camera in the unstairs cupboard and had it aimed at us the whole time.
My brother takes it all quite seriously. He plays his guitar with such concentration.
I got very annoyed with my dolls and teddies for falling over every now and then. And kept picking at the plaster on my knee from a recent tumble over.
I then noticed the camera. *SHOWOFF ALERT* I put more effort into my singing. More effort into my danxing. Even though I was putting my all into it in the first place. Then.....once my brother ran off and I thought the filming had stopped......I picked my nose.
To this day the film humiliates me but the memories of us being a happy family back then makes me so happy.
This song helps to pause the horrible memories from when my dad left us.
I think this was one of the first songs where I actually listened to the words and realised how powerful lyrics can be.
Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - yeah I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

And my third choice. Well it had to be didn't it.......Ricky Martin. Vuelve.
I've mentioned before about how much I love this man and this song.
I could list every single song by Ricky Martin. This one though is my ultimate favourite. Its a Spanish song, and the title of one of my favourite albums of his. The video is equally as amazing as the song. I walked down the aisle on my wedding day to Private Emotion. And was lucky enough to see at Earls Court around 10 years ago! [Being afraid of heights has its benefits, our seats were changed from stupidly high up to around 10 rows back from the left of the stage, where noone else appeared to be seated. Also happened to be the place Ricky Martin went off stage for outfit changes!) My dream was to hear him perform this song live, especially as I was going through a tough time when we saw him, and my dream came true.
I used to listen to this song all the time back then. It made me feel happy, comforted, made me relax. It always felt like a great big hug. And it still does.